There are so many ideas going around in my head – stuff I want to do, things I want to write, projects I want to work on, quilts I want to make, books I want to read, races I want to race, songs I want to hear, smiles I want to smile, tears I want to cry, accomplishments I want to accomplish.
Do you ever have that feeling when you have so many things going on and you just want to get at them, but don’t know where to begin?
Sometimes, I feel so excited and I flit from place to place. FlyLady calls people like me, butterflies. Flitting from place to place making the world beautiful for the seconds that we land. I like that. I start and stop one thing, only to flit to another without the first being completed and so on. Sometimes, that is fine with me, sometimes it’s not. Sometimes people around me don’t mind, but sometimes they do.
I know it’s the way I am. It’s the way I’ve always been. I always want to be involved in so many things! I’m so afraid of being left out! I would start so many “projects”. I was such a nerd! Well, maybe “was” isn’t a good word since I kinda still am a nerd.
So many things, so little time. The worst of it is, I need at least 8 hours sleep to function! If I could skip the sleep part, I could do so much more. Sometimes, I feel frustrated and overwhelmed and ANNOYED that I can’t do it all! It ticks me right off! I often say “there are not enough hours in the day”
I think that’s why I get so frustrated at work and even at home or even with my personal life. I have so many ideas to make it better. I want SO MUCH to make it better. It can be better dammit! So…I start one idea or decide how I’m going to tackle a problem and WHAM! I am blind-sided by yet another problem or situation and I am easily distracted with it! If I could just say…”wait, I will get to you when I’m done with this…” man, would it be better for me! But no…I try and try to make everyone happy and try and try to do absolutely everything!
I guess I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t have 3 or 4 books started, myriads of webpages bookmarked to “read later”, quilting projects started but not finished, 6 magazines partly read, rooms partly organized, many different work projects started but nowhere near completion, To-do lists pages and pages long. Even for my workouts – I NEVER do the same thing twice in a row…or even in a week. Maybe in a month I’ll do something again.
It’s not that I get bored. (I don’t recall being bored in the past 20+ years!) No, it’s not boredom that makes me flit about. It’s the fact that suddenly I’ll say to myself…”ooo-now there’s something new!” or “wow, I could do that!” or “gee, let’s find a way to fix that for you” or “Let’s put out that fire”….
Sigh….guess I’d better get at it! Got distracted quite a few times while writing this! I see the time zone is wrong. It thinks I wrote this at 4:11 a.m. Gotta fix it!