I am spending a Sunday morning – Renew Your Spirit Day (via FlyLady) – sipping coffee on the deck, reading and thinking about what I’m reading. As I mentioned in my post yesterday, I finished reading “The Shack“. One of the passages I marked talks about Fears.
…”The darkness hides the true size of fears and lies and regrets,” Jesus explained. “The truth is they are more shadow than reality, so they seem bigger in the dark. When the light shines into the places where they live inside you, you start to see them for what they are.”
…”But why do we keep all that crap inside?” Mack asked.
…”Because we believe it’s safer there. And, sometimes, when you’re a kid trying to survive, it really is safer there. Then you grow up on the outside, but on the inside you’re still that kid in the dark cave surrounded by monsters, and out of habit you keep adding to your collection.”…
It’s a lot of “crap” that we’ve collected, isn’t it!? I’ve got my flashlight though. And my “Anti-Monster Spray” (aka air freshener) that I used when the kids went through that phase. ‘Cept this time, it’s for me.
I’ve spent a lot of time worrying. A lot of time being afraid. No more.
My “Anti-Monster Spray” really works! In the positive, sweet-smelling (& sometimes, not so sweet!) TRUTH spraying through the air, I breathe deeply. I am still. The monsters shrink back to nothing. They shrivel and waste away without me feeding them.
My flashlight shines on those fears and lies and they are tiny. Their shadows are so much bigger than they are. I laugh at them. They do not control me. I see them for what they really are, there in that beam of light. Darkness doesn’t exist. There is only light. Simple.
Now that I have seen what is really there in the dark, I am ready. My Spray and my Light are close at hand for the times that I will need them again. For now, I can sleep peacefully knowing that I am safe. I am loved. I am enough. I am no longer afraid.