I’m Stumped

I’m really stumped….

As many of you know, one of my resolutions fir the year was to accept the fact that I’m working where I am for now and I resolved to make the best of it.

Well, needless to say, this week has been like a giant snowball, careening out of control and getting bigger all the time! I feel completely out of control of anything!

I resolved to accept the things that I cannot control, but at the moment, I feel like NOTHING IS actually in my control! Not one thing! I feel completely helpless. And most of all, like a complete failure!

I need help. I need advice. I need guidance. What should I do?

Should I focus on getting at least one or two processes in place so that at least something is written down? Right now, we just try to remember what was done before or “wing” it. Nothing is tracked, no issue tracking, no inventory, no step by step at all.

Should I focus on trying to create a task list of some sort to try to organize all the jobs that need doing? Prioritize and group things for efficiency? Right now, it’s just fire fighting and whoever yells the loudest!

Should I ignore all the issues and focus on the proactive, creative, teaching stuff that have the potential to help people BEFORE they have to ask & are frustrated?

This academic year has had the most outages, most issues, most confusion than any other that I have seen in my 10 years here. I don’t know if it’s just me or if I’m imagining it? People across campus keep telling me I’m right, but maybe I’m just crazy? It sure feels like it each day!

What should I do? Should I spend some time searching for tools that will help us get some control? Should I spend time on creating a more positive image of what we ARE able to do to distract from all that is breaking? Should I focus on stuff I can fix? (most of it, I can’t – that’s what’s out if my control, always has been)

Help! I don’t know what to do. I want it to be better, but the week sure hasn’t been….ideas? Thoughts? Tell me I’m crazy? Anything!?

Thanks friends!

7 thoughts on “I’m Stumped

  1. I am a control freak, and nothing makes me crazier than not being able to have any say when the world gets out of hand.

    I am all in favor of a good list, “just in case.” Even though it may be fruitless, it at least makes me feel a little bit prepared.


    1. Thanks Kitch! Lists at least feel like things are moving forward and a little in control! I appreciate you!

  2. Hey My Dear Sister,
    It sounds to me like you are over-thinking, analyzing too much — not every situation has to be critiqued;) Relax, breathe, prioritize, you will get everything done — you always do.

  3. I can tell you for certain….it wont change lol. You need to make and active CHOICE and follow it through no matter what. You need to show resolve and will not compromise on that resolve no matter what. I suggest to you that you have given your power and self respect over to “THEM” and you should take it back 🙂

    I was willing to walk that path because I made that choice. The fact that I was fired is only the reflection of weak minded individuals that function from a paradigm of fear and control and having no power over me in that context left them with one course of action. To them they effected me and controlled my life lol little did they know. Its truly funny when you watch mice scurry mindlessly I laughed so hard.

    One question to really ask yourself is (Am I truly in a position to effect change?) If the answer is no the please stop fighting WHAT IS because you will only create suffering in your own life.

    Then really ask yourself (Can I accept what is?) /this is the most important because this is your life and you spread your wings only when you choose :). Take flight when you want.

    If you still want to fight figuratively speaking then truly accept it can go either way and which way it goes is not up to you…what is totally in your control is what you choose to fight for and how far you are willing to take it will directly impact your self respect and self esteem.

    I will suggest this one last piece of advice, the world is full of bounty beyond where you are at this moment the real question is are you willing to embrace change that would effect you and your family for something new and wonderful, where ever and what ever that may be if you break that shackle then…I can assure you, everything that comes with where you are right now will simply fall away with the power of love for life and all its splendor.

    1. Thanks Shannon! I sure miss our philosophical “chats” such as this. Cheers to you and your gang up North 🙂

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