Eliza choked on the smoke that was filling the room as she soaked the piece of cloth she’d ripped from the bedclothes. She tied it tightly around her mouth and knelt beside Robert’s motionless body. Her fingers trembled as she pulled on the ring on his hand. Eliza shuddered when the ring slipped free easily from Robert’s blood-slicked left hand.

The pounding at the door intensified as more smoke billowed out. The Brute called to his master, shouting urgently. Flames from the canopy ignited the straw on the floor. Burning feathers added to the stench as the bedding caught fire. Eliza coughed violently into her bent elbow, hopeful that the Brute couldn’t hear her over his shouts. One more crash against the door and it would break free from it’s iron hinges.

Shoving her thick black braid under Robert’s discarded cap, Eliza pushed the wooden chair under the window and climbed up onto the stone. It was a 5 foot drop to the kitchen’s clay roof below. She could see men running with buckets to the well. Servants streamed out of the kitchen with blankets to soak as everyone raced to keep the fire from spreading. In the rising panic, Eliza’s tumble onto the roof went unnoticed.

Crawling along the gable roof, Eliza made it to the stables.  The farrier and his sons were busy getting the screaming horses out of their stalls. She dropped down into the wagon full of hay that was new from the fields. The landing was soft, but it was difficult maneuvering with her skirts in the way. Eliza couldn’t stop the “ooof” that escaped her as she crashed against the side of the wagon. As she did, the moon moved clear of the clouds. When Eliza stood up, she saw one of them – she thought his name was Eli – pause and stare at her.

Eliza pulled the cloth down from her mouth to whisper to him; to plead with him not to tell anyone. Before she could say anything, Eli glanced around, and raised his calloused hand. Her heart stopped as she was sure that he was about to shout to the others.

Instead, she realized that the young man was signalling her to wait while his brothers pulled horses in the opposite direction. He moved his muscular body so that the view of her was blocked from their sight. Reaching into his pocket, Eli pulled out a small cloth-wrapped bundle and placed it into Eliza’s shaking hand.

She could see the sweat stain on his tunic and his tousled blonde hair and smell the horses on his body. Eli reached out and gentle urged her away from him. He hissed,


With one last look in what must have been his blue eyes, Eliza tried to thank him as she ran down the hill toward the river.

The moon followed her as she wound her way down to the crossing, but disappeared again as she reached the black, calm waters. Behind her now, the sky flickered with red, orange and yellows. The flames seemed to be out of control.

Though she worried for some of the people back there; like Eli; Eliza was grateful for the one little knocked over candle that was giving her this chance. The fire would keep them busy for a while, but she would need to put as much time between them as she could.

A loud crash broke the silence at the river’s edge and Eliza couldn’t help the small scream that escaped her. Two dairy cows careened past her, eyes wild with fright as they fled the fire behind them. She sighed and moved away from the frightened animals.

Eliza felt her way to the boathouse at the landing. She knew that there were a few blankets there for winter crossings. Perhaps there were some other supplies there that she could use for her journey over the mountains. It was summer down here, but there was still snow up in the pass.

The door creaked as she opened it. Eliza held her breath, hoping no one was nearby. The faint light of the moon barely lit her way as she reached along the wall for the blankets. Rope dangled from the ceiling and she pulled down pieces of it. A rusty scaling knife lay on the bench beside the blankets. There was a tangle of fishing line that she thought might be useful. Eli’s bundle was a bit of cheese and bread he must have saved from supper. She wrapped the items into a blanket and tied it with the rope around her.

As she gathered her meager things, Eliza rubbed the blood from the ring she pulled from her pocket. Robert’s blood. Clenching her jaw, she pictured him lying there on the floor, flames creeping toward his thick body; blood still gushing from beneath the knife she’d pushed deep into his thigh.

The same knife he always threatened to cut her throat with. He laughed at her each time he used her; so confident in his power over her. Her stole everything from her. Her pride, her body, her innocence, and this…

She held it up to the sliver of light that came through the trees…her father’s ring…


…I have been trying to write this for almost a week! Wow! It’s been a very long time since I’ve been writing on my blog…and I used to write a lot! My goal here is to get back in to the writing habit. It’s something that I’ve always enjoyed and feels like something that I’m meant to do.

This is part of a new novel that I am starting called Too Many Secrets (well…it’s called that for now…who knows what will happen as it grows!)

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Meeting Kali

Visions of their criticizing faces flew around her. The wind whipped their words in a frenzy, echoing through her mind. “Empty” “Lost” “Hypocrite” “Failure” “Not Enough” Around and around they swirled.

Her heart pounded. She could feel the goose bumps all over her skin. The wind was deafening. She feared it would push her off that precarious ledge where she stood. Lightning flashed — oh! — so close. She felt its fire touch her cold skin.

A vision of a small girl appeared beside her. Lost and alone “Ignored” “Afraid” “simple” “Plain” were the words that came to her now. The little girl did not smile. Her face was solemn and smudged. She looked abandoned and unloved. She did not cry, just stared straight ahead – watching someone or something off in the distance. She realized the girl was wearing a dirty dress and her hair was a mess. And she didn’t seem to be afraid of the flashing lightning or the wind pulling at her, threatening to let her fall from the cliff.

The Goddess stood, half smiling beside them. Her many hands seeming to caress the silvery clouds. Was the lightning coming from her hands? “What do you want from this?” her eyes seemed to say. “None of this is stronger than I. I am you. I can take all of this away. Look deep into those words. Into those faces”

She found herself peering closer, forgetting the precipice there at her feet. The words seemed to shimmer. More lightning flashed. The wind roared louder and louder. Stones fell…down…down…into the valley below as her feet pushed closer to the edge. She peered. Her breathing came quicker, deeper into her belly…She leaned…further…further.

“I am here. You will not fall.” The Goddess’ strength surrounded her, wrapping her in her arms, yet not touching her. And the girl. Where had she gone? She looked back at the words. They were now translucent. She could see far beyond them. They swirled, but slower now.

She noticed that the lightning still flashed, but now she saw its beauty. She felt music in her heart, playing to the distant beat of the thunder. Or was that her heart’s pounding? The faces faded until all she could see was the fading colors in them as the wind turned them into whispers of clouds.

The hands of the Goddess guided the wind in slow, undulating waves. Drawing the beauty of the silver clouds all around them. She realized the girl stood beside her again. Her face was upturned and smiling. In her hand was a piece of paper. In the other, a pencil. She looked up, and, smiling once more, wandered off. Meandering and noticing the path down the mountain. Sometimes she’d stop and bend to look at something. Sometimes picking something up and turning it this way and that.

She watched the girl for a few minutes. As her attention came back to the Goddess beside her – she found that the storm in front of her was filled with shimmering lights and flashes of color. A chorus of beauty and power. She stretched out her arms and realized that so much of the light was coming from her pounding chest. And still the Goddess stood beside her – the knowing smile on her lips.

Gone were the chills down her spine. She turned her face up and felt the fire of the lightning warm her skin. She breathed so deeply and realized the wind was a part of her breath. The deeper she breathed, the more it moved.

She listened to the Goddess’ unspoken words once more. “Return to this place when you have need of it. I am here. I am you. I am strength and power. Return to me and fear no more”

Her eyes closed and she was gone. The storm was gone. The mountain was gone. The girl was gone. All that remained was a smooth pebble. There, warm in her hand. Black it seemed until she looked closer and saw her own rainbow reflection.