Lent Day 35 and 36

The sun came out today! My pre-noon “chinook” headache told me that the weather would rapidly change today. Sure enough, it did! Melting like crazy, shining on my face! Misty midnight, be gone! LOL!

I’m feeling great today! I feel like I’m getting things done and I’m excited about things to come! I heard yesterday that my Dad is busy working on a little project that I suggested to him about a new sewing table/desk made from the door of my old room. If anyone can pull something like that off, my Dad can! Plus, he’s retired and I think was looking for a project! LOL! Thanks Dad! You’re the BEST!

Yesterday, I worked out at the gym. Today, was rest day (one of the College coaches caught me doing lunges yesterday, so she came over to give me some pointers. She’s from Russia, a gorgeous athletic woman who knows her stuff! Let’s just say she pushed me to work a little harder than I’ve been doing! Wow! Sore legs!)

Weigh-In Wednesday today!!

Day 1 – 176 lbs

Day 8 – 172 lbs

Day 15 – 172 lbs

Day 22 – 168 lbs

Day 29 – 167 lbs

Day 36 – 166 lbs – the digital read was flitting between 165 and 166! Holy moly!!

I am thrilled with the way I’ve been feeling being without refined sugar. And now the conversations and planning that my family (especially my hubby) and I have been doing to make some real changes in the way we eat PERMANENTLY make me so proud of us! We have learned so much and are learning and living healthier lives because of it!

Gramma, you would be proud of us observing Lent and learning about each other along the way. I kinda think that’s what Lent is all about. Learning more about the sacrifice that Jesus made for us so that we can learn more about loving so much that any sacrifice is worth it. I ❤ my Family! 🙂

Tuesday Menu:

Breakfast: I had a piece of toast with natural peanut butter and fresh juiced orange juice (we love our juicer! LOL!)

a.m. snack: Greek yogurt, blackberries and hemp

Lunch: Strawberry and spinach salad with raspberry vinaigrette and some chicken breast.

p.m. snack: banana

Supper: spaghetti – whole wheat pasta

 

Wednesday Menu:

Breakfast: Bruce made me one of those thin bagel egg, bacon & cheese sandwiches

a.m. snack: soy milk latte that I decided to try…not bad. Kristi says “eewwww” (that was hilarious!)

Lunch: chicken breast. greek yogurt and some strawberries and hemp

p.m. snack: skipped this today – totally lost track of time!

Supper: chili made from some dry “raw” beans that Bruce picked up at Costco today – he’s finding some interesting healthy foods there lately. I’m a little concerned since I prefer to shop local. However, he is trying to help…

Cheers to healthier eating my friends! 🙂

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Lent Day 29

A busy day today that started late because I slept in. But…I was compelled to be grateful and wrote this post this morning: Life is Beautiful

It’s another Weigh-In Wednesday!

Day 1 – 176 lbs

Day 8 – 172 lbs

Day 15 – 172 lbs

Day 22 – 168 lbs

Day 29 – 167 lbs

Progress continues! I had my cycle over this past week as well, so I was sure that I would go up because of that. Great news that it didn’t! I did weigh myself on Friday last week (I’m getting too curious about this!) and I was 166!! We’ll try to wait until next Wednesday before I check again! LOL!

I had a fantastic run today with my friends. Stacey & I went 4K and tried to do the last 600m a lot faster than our normal pace. (Our normal pace is 8 minutes per K) We got to 6min30sec per K at the end of our run. It felt great! I wouldn’t have been able to go much past that at that point, but it was good to push it a little!

I’m heading up to do yoga again tonight – it’s really helping with my tight muscles…

Today’s Menu:

Breakfast: one of those yummy berry smoothies with all the good hemp hearts and stuff in it!

a.m. snack: Greek yogurt & raspberries

Lunch: the last of the left over stew

p.m. snack: 2 slices of cantaloupe

Supper: the kids and I had parent – teacher interviews. We then went to the grocery store (hungry, not the best plan…) and Becca and I got Co-op chicken wings and Lucas got KD. So we had a quick supper. I found that I could not eat it all anyway. LOL! I had the buffalo wings, so I’m sure that there wasn’t much sugar in that. Anyway, not one of my better suppers. We’ll do better tomorrow – I got lots of yummy and good for us groceries with them too!

Life is Beautiful

It is the first day of Spring 2012, here in Olds, Alberta.

I rushed along, stuck behind someone who thought the speed limit through town is 20KPH, late and no parking spot and so many things demanding my time. I felt the cold on my hands where my forgotten gloves should have been. My body aches from yesterday’s tough workout and my sluggish brain complains of the lack of caffeine that my sleeping in resulted in from only one latte today…

There are many things to grumble about, there are many changes to be afraid of, there are many things that don’t go the way I’d planned. And yet…I have it all:

1. My beautiful family who give me reason to press on

2. A warm bed and loving husband in a house in a quiet neighbourhood where my family is safe

3. Parents who allowed me to spread my wings and fly wherever my heart takes me

4. Friends who love me the way I am, who are always there when I fall

5. A job that lets me do what I do best: help people, every day

6. My body that is strong and able to feel the cold and the sore muscles because I am alive and well

7. Dreams that may seem crazy to some but I believe in them anyway

8. A hope and faith that there are so many more special moments and days ahead of me
I read an email early today that said: “Spread love everywhere you go: First of all in your own house … kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile, kindness.” ~ Mother Teresa and then I saw this video:

All of these thoughts came flowing out of my heart and I had to write. I had to share. Regardless of the consequences. I just had to share in whatever way I can.

Life IS beautiful…We have it all

Lent Day 20

Today, Bruce cancelled cable. We’d been talking about letting it go before the Lent experiment. Everyone has done so well without it that we just decided to do it. My oldest son didn’t have cable for much of his growing up years and he really didn’t miss out on anything. We love watching movies and play lots on the computer. Now, there’s even Netflix if we really want to watch something. Plus, most shows can be obtained on the internet these days. If we even bother. There isn’t a lot on TV that we like to watch!

It was a busy day – lots of computer issues at work – not a very good batting average for our group this year. I’m a little stumped on how to turn this around…oh well, it’s not really for me to decide anyway. I need to stop worrying…sigh….the day started with me running late and then spilling most of my latte all over the floor by the front door…

Anyway, I am thankful for many things today:

  1. My hubby brought me the first latte for when I got out of the shower. Coffee…That always makes me smile
  2. I got to the gym and worked hard with some of my good friends. Working Out…That always makes me smile
  3. I was able to fix a few computer issues, little things, but important to someone. Being Helpful…That always makes me smile
  4. The snow was melting and I thought of spring today. Spring…That always makes me smile
  5. I stopped in and picked up my daughter’s “new” second hand jeans that I got her to say thank you for helping me this weekend. It made her smile. Giving…that always makes me smile
  6. Talking with Kristen and meeting someone new and interesting in her store. She’s such a great new friend. New Friends…That always makes me smile
  7. Sitting with my gang snuggled together watching a movie after our busy weekend in different directions. Reconnecting…That always makes me smile
  8. Seeing my older son put his arm around and comfort his little brother when he felt sad. Brotherly Love…That always makes me smile
  9. Telling the tale of my BFF’s awesome weekend that her hubby created for her. True Love…That always makes me smile
  10. Breathing in, breathing out. Being Alive…That always makes me smile
This song came to me this morning:

Menu:

Breakfast: 1 rye bread toast with some butter

a.m. snack: some almonds & a banana

Lunch: Hummus and bran crackers and a little cheddar

p.m. snack: Greek yogurt & blueberries

Supper: Caesar salad and guacamole and triscuits

 

Life’s Seasons

This morning, at a very early hour, I am up again to read and reflect. I have started to find this early morning time for me is a relief and respite from the craziness that I seem to be in this month. What is it about June?

I started a new devotional book today: Inspiring Women Every Day. The beginning of something new. This month has been full of “newness”, yet at the same time, some “oldness” has come back to haunt me.

Both my husband and I started new positions for work. Exciting, yes, but I’ve found myself having a hard time adjusting to his new schedule. It brought back a ton of bad memories that I have of an earlier time in our relationship when things were…on the edge. I don’t know why; it’s certainly not fair to either of us. No one needs to dwell in the past.

What I think it means is that I have needed to really face it. I pushed all the hurt and fear down inside me so that I could carry on. I did not allow myself to heal. I was not honest with him nor with myself. And so, in these new times of weariness and missing him, all the darkness pushed it’s way to the surface. The fear and the hurt tried to rush in.

This time though, I am stronger. I have learned a lot about who I am and what I am capable of. I have more faith that God will not give me anything that I cannot handle. He has given me the resources and the willingness to hurt, accept and then heal. To know that I cannot heal without first letting myself hurt.

And so, I read, I pray, I talk, I cry and finally, FINALLY I starting to feel like I can move on.

I am no fool. I know that I will be tested so many times. But now I’ve learned that these are just the ebbs and flows of life. That it really has nothing to do with me at all. It is just the seasons of life. I should have understood that from being raised on a farm!

Sometimes, the winters are hard and long but the spring always comes. There have been magical winters full of memories and special times. Summers are brilliant and easy most of the time, but there are summers when disaster has struck. Fall always seems to feel like a time for reflecting and harvesting of all that we’ve learned. Each year, we move forward a little more.

What I mean to say in my ramblings here this morning (I was up before 5, so cut me some slack! LOL!) is that there is always, ALWAYS those difficult long winters or stormy summers in our life. But there are also blissful. quiet winter evenings by the fire and lazy, hot summer days where all the world seems perfect. It’s how we grow and how & what we choose to harvest from them that really matters.

Look back over the week and heal those hurts and then move on. Today, a midst another rainy day, find the moments that feel like summer. There is so much joy in creativity – take the time to create something; do something you love. Turn off the noise and breathe. Just breathe. It may only be for a tiny piece of the weekend; don’t worry about how much time you don’t have. None of us have much time here. Our seasons are not that long…

Love’s Not

I’m still learning, some days slower than others, what Love IS! And also learning what it’s NOT…

  • controlling someone else; whether it be a spouse or a child – understanding them for who they really are not what you want them to be
  • falling head over heels, ga-ga all the time. Sometimes it’s just curling up on the couch watching TV or a hot cup of coffee waiting for you when you get out of the shower
  • fear or forced – no one should ever, EVER think that hurting someone will make them love you. I pray each day for those that live in fear of the person who is supposed to love them. Stop the cycle of violence
  • easy – it’s never easy. There are times that feel like your heart is shattered in pieces all over the floor. A word, a look, a behaviour. God, it sure can hurt sometimes. We have all felt it and have all done it to someone else
  • always reciprocated. Sometimes we love someone and they just don’t love us back. There are times when someone (like a spouse or a child) seems to even hate us; and sometimes they do…but don’t stop loving them. Love them with all your heart; let them go. If it’s meant to be, they will come back to you. Sometimes they just need to learn to love themselves first. Help them see how beautiful and loved they are

I’m not sure why I’m being so lovey dovey today…must be the rain. I’m in love with the song below; so maybe that’s why…

I’ve been thinking about all the times that my heart has been broken. All the times when I’ve thought I’d never get over it. God….how many times….and why has it taken me until now, 41 years old, to realize just how much I am loved. How much I deserve love! How it’s always been right there. Sometimes in little moments, sometimes in big things. Always there…

  • in the softness of my children’s hands when they hold mine…
  • in the feel of green grass between my toes
  • in my mother’s advice and unending caring and worrying
  • in my handsome husband’s arms around me and his quiet voice soothing my tears
  • in the gentle rain falling on my face as I search the sky for the sun
  • in my father’s strong back, doing so much for everyone else but him
  • in my 20 year old’s arm around my shoulder, teasing me about how he’s bigger than me
  • in a friend’s laughter shared and in her tears as she pours her heart out to someone who understands
  • in my heart as I let the Son shine in, finally understanding that yes, I am worth His sacrifice
  • in my words as I try so hard to share my heart with the world, even when my words don’t make much sense

Worth It – Francesca Battistelli